1. I was fond of reading. In 1991, that village called Taparian got a small box full of books for kids studying in the government primary school. My parents were teachers there. I used to sit on the wall of Shiva temple-watching the rahat-the circle of boxes driven by couple of bulls. It was the irrigation device for fields. I used to sit for long hours reading tales of adventures of Sindbad the sailor and conversations between Yama and Nachiketa.
2. I went back to that village after my entrance into college. To see what was so sweet, so divine about those books, about that place. I could have brought all those books with me: mostly Eklavya Prakashan Delhi. Aha! The teacher in that village was offering all those to me but I thought: how very unethical and selfish it would be to keep those sweet memories with myself and not let other kids read them. I didn’t bring those books but made a list which I brought back to search titles online.
3. It was a child’s dream. A climactic setting which made the reading so joyful. I got admission into Maria Mata Convent School in Chhatarpur. I was supposed to enter standard fourth but my Vocabulary which merely had twenty odd words allowed me entrance only into second standard. I was seven when I entered Maria Mata. I met Aditi there. She disappeared too soon. I recall her curly hair everyday i pass from her new colony apartment. An accident consumed three of them. Her brother was left stranded. Marooned.
4. Opposite to that street is Homeguard office which celebrated its 74th establishment day very recently.
5. My reading books continued. Pandit Shriram Sharma Acharya was the most prominent spiritual author at that time. I got hooked. I read all of his literature. I might have bought five or seven vaangmayas at most. The clear clairvoyant perception that I had at first was 555: detergent powder. I was in the Cricket field. Bowling opposite to Chaurasiya ji wall and as I came here to drink water I heard the same ad being played on TV. His book on Ichchha Shakti or Will Power was my favourite for a while. It was first read by Ankur’s grandmother. Gayatri Mandir was munificent with literature. I was always disappointed by seeing most of them not following his teachings or not reading enough of his literature. During lockdown some of the marriages had to follow his teachings: not following dowry tradition or splurging money. Just a fraction of what he imagined for 21st century golden future.
6. Unless I had been to Kota, Rajasthan, I would have been limited to Pandit Shriram Sharma. I was addicted to his books. No other words would do justice. All of our family members used to read the magazine Akhand Jyoti but I was a researcher. I experimented. As early as at 10 years of age.
7. In Kota i was dying. Struggling. Surviving. Desperately I searched for his literature to get inspiration. I didn’t find it on stalls. Not in Vigyaan Nagar or Favvara Chauk. A lady on a book stall showed me a book by Osho. That was a turning point. I gulped 24 books within six months. I understood everything he said. I was devoting most of my time to breathing practices and invented a rhythmic breathing pattern which I called Taal. It helped me get rid of anxiety. Made me gain weight which I had sought for long in my teenage years. I ultimately gained Hatha Yoga Laya Samadhi with that method after four years of practice in 2007.
8. When I returned from Kota my parents were ready to burn those 24 books. Santosh sat with a pen highlighting each and every line which had a reference to sex. Usha Shukla’s husband accussed me of getting into a bad company which might merely have been a suggestion for jerking off? I won’t know. He took a book from me and never came back.
9. I had lost 8 kilograms in six months as pressure was too much. All family members had malaria together. I had nightmares. Dravid had scored three double centuries in six months. So did Ponting. Dravid could never do that again. Neither Ponting. I was being sacrificed. Cricket is as much of Tantra as anything else. How would I have known.
10. Osho was replaced by Eckhart, UG and Jiddu. Jiddu was easy for me though he was difficult for others. Why did Jiddu age and suffer in his last 11 days became my subject of research later on.
11. Osho aka Acharya Rajneesh was eldest among 11 brothers. A huge Jaina family. He was born in a wealthy family. He went to school riding on an elephant. He went to college in a car. He always had people who gifted him things. From Raisen to Sagar to Jabalpur to Bombay to Pune to Rajneeshpuram to Pune in the end: he created enough of a movement in merely 20 years of his lifetime to be declared a spiritual terrorist by pontiffs.
12. Osho never wandered like monks. He never walked through India like Vivekananda did. Yet his biography was named “Ek Fakkad Maseeha.” One penniless messiah.
13. Though he inclined towards Japanese Buddhism towards end of his life-his life was fashioned after Jesus Christ: persecution syndrome to make his business boom. His books were always costlier compared to those of Shriram Sharma’s.
14. At the peak of his success he had 20 million followers worldwide. Teachers like Ram Rahim or Asharam had much wider following. What differentiated him?
15. He was an intellectual. He claimed to have read 10000 books at once. His personal library has more than 100000 titles.
16. He had the luxury to experiment with LSD and Nitrous Oxide was always available for him.
17. At once he was the most widely read author in India along with Freud.
18. Sex and Death were subjects he openly spoke about. Taboo breaking teachings made him infamous. Tax evasion was his bane. His freedom was limited in the end. He seemed bitter.
19. I visited Koregaon Park in 2009, along with Yervada Mandir(Jail?) They are located nearby to each other. I also saw Milind Gunaji in Vimaan Nagar as I took membership of a library. Right ho Jeeves! The pyramid near the lake touched my heart. The vibration remained with me as i said goodbye to Pune and went on a journey to Chennai. Madras.
20. I didn’t read all the books by Pandit Shriram or Osho. I didn’t need to read them. They have too much of repitition. They didn’t reach the heights of Vallalar.
21. Osho assumed the title of Bhagwan in Pune. It means ‘ the blessed one.’ In conventional jaina hierarchy of beings it meant Arhat or Arihant. From Upadhyaya to Arya to Siddha to Arhat: it was his own journey. He must have known what was being done. I don’t know where he’s now but his voice has influence on many people; especially on young neo sanyasins. He came in a line of twentieth century teachers who were supposed to research and refine Buddhism. Being a jaina he could never give up his trading attitude(his words not mine!)
22. UG called him a pimp. Jiddu said that he took money from kids and kept it for himself. Jews seemed happy with him. It’s suspected that Christianity caused his arrest and departure in a painful manner. How many people have towns made in their name in a country where they were not born? Gandhi has almost every major city with a street named after him. Gandhi’s literature is mostly about prisons.
23. Osho means ‘oceanic in experience.’ Rajneesh means Moon. Born in Gadarwara, Narsinghpur on 11121931 he had a five planet stellium in the sign of Sagittarius with its lord Jupiter exalted and retrograde. Retrograde planets give results opposite to their dignity. His Jaimini Atmakaraka was Jupiter and it was in Pisces in Navamansa. Was he a liar and a thief?
24. Never born never died: he was one of the most prolific authors of twentieth century. All intellectuals born in India since then have heard about his teachings. In an interview, Amrita Preetam called him a sage : Then- I felt his sage status was confirmed- in my mind.